I fucked up bad, I don't think anyone wants to listen to my shit anymore, it might be time to pack things up.

Of course 15 minutes after I posted the last post I thought, in the words of Christopher Titus about the pup "You should get off that cross and use the would to build a Fucking bridge."

I was watching some animal planet or discovery thing about seals eating penguins. They showed this momma seal and started talking about how she had to eat more to produce more milk for her child. By the way the young seal is undernourished. So the mom goes into the water to catch some penguins or fish so she can nourish her young. She is immediately eaten by a killer whale. The young pup begins barking. The narrator again mentions the young seal is undernourished. The camera pans out and you see a scientist walks past the seal pup. Then this bird flies down and starts pecking the pup. The narrator then says something like "The pup is so mal nourished he can not even defend himself from this bird." At this point I start laughing hysterically. The reason why is sometimes I feel like the pup. Not that I can compare by any means but the hopelessness is there. I am reminded of a quote "Sometimes you got to laugh to keep from cryin'"

Fuck pyramid schemes and selling insurance. Check engine light came on today I guess my car realized I was unemployed.

The zune commercials look very coka colaish.

So I think I have a job...do I want it. How do I asses that I want a job I get? What do you guys think? Send me an email ( noctem@pochta.ru ) / give me a comment. When do I know I have the job I want?

Apex Systems? Altig? ATS? What do you guys think?

Oh and a hair cut.

1 interview so far, 2 legitimate emails, 1 interview planned, 4 calls made. Looks like I might get employed.

Don't you love beer...err Malt liquor

You ever save that last glass of wine from the box for months after you drank the rest of it, just so it looks like your not an alcoholic who drank 5 liters of wine in one night. Well suprise bitch, if you drink wine out of a box, oops your an alcoholic.

Well this is my new tat.

I really would like to dedicat this post to someone very special. Someone who has supported me quite a bit. Someone who was always their for me even if I wasn't for him. Somone who I have outstanding debts to, even. Thanks Clay you have helped me through a lot.

I'm sure Clay is extremeley happy that my HUGE readership(not two people I promise) knows he has been honored.

Here is a letter I sent to my boss today.

Boss,
The other day you asked if I could reduce my workload to 30
hourse a week. No I can not. Also I need the $100 car allowance a
month, as a raise as we had discussed earlier. I also need to start
doing more security work.
At one time you referred to security as a trend or fad, well it is neither. In fact it is a pschological need. In fact the only need that comes before it is physioligical. It is the reason I am writing this letter. I need security. I need to know that my job is safe, my pay is fair, and my hours are secure.

Thanks in advance,
Me

I talked to a good friend of mine,who is the most level headed people I know about my blight with my boss. I think you guys will be suprised what I do after following his advice.

Some people seemed confused on my don't vote policy. They are asking who can or should vote.

1. You have read the irony of democracy.
2. You are aware of 3 diffrent viewpoints on America giving aid to Israel
3. You give a shit about something
4. You are not a douchetard
5. You know the diffrence between senate and congress
6. You know how many congressmen your state has
7. You did not think that congressmen above should be changed to congresspeople
8. You have been screwed by a friend at least once
9. You have been screwed by a boss at least once
10. You have screwed yourself at least once
11. You have taken acid on at least 7 diffrent occasions

So today was kind of a cool down period. It means I have to find another job. It means a lot of things. It means the relization that at some point my dad switched from being my dad to being my landlord (This happened sometime after hitting the a/c unit with my car and before/during the hit and run). It meant that I got royally screwed in a corporate sense for the first time(that mattered.) It means that the new laptop I need(not like the way I need some shit but really need so I can function at work) got delayed for two reasons.

Good news I am doing well on my modules(Not as fast as I would like but still doing well.) They are a lot harder than I expected. Steve is doing.....well Steve is doing.

Bad news. Even more loss with my faith in the human race.